Weakness is weak
Like a creek it leaks and reeks
Of failure…like a tick
It sticks with abandon streak
Yet it humanizes
Even as it crystallizes
You and I with increases
Of the human population that God increases
Even as He works through yours and my weaknesses
Poem by Arnold Etyang
I hate any and every form of weakness in myself, in others, whether perceived or otherwise. It is for this reason that I have read (almost) everything there is to self-help my way through porn addiction. From books that teach one how to avert one’s gaze while on the streets to avoid looking too long at the opposite sex, to books that tell one what a man is and how he should behave himself publicly and privately. I have read all these. Yet, I still continue to and will continue to till I get rid of this weakness. Please don’t fault me on that and like I said earlier – I HATE ANY AND EVERY FORM OF WEAKNESS!
I guess you are thinking, “Bro, you are the child of the Most High. You should know better right!”
But I also know the odds are stacked against me now that I am hobbled by doubt-inducing shame every time I revert back to my old self. My soul has refused to rest in the knowledge that my shame has been taken care of. I know because I’m still there. The swell of temptation — the clicks, the views, the web-history cleaning — and the shame, disgust, confession, resolve, and the backsliding are all bullies of mine every now and again.
A. Medders in his article Seven Promises to Pray Against Porn says something very interesting at the beginning of his article,
The fight against porn isn’t because we are sinful or want to sin more and more. It’s because we are failing to reach up to the promises of God.
Then he goes on to give you seven promises that you can rest on (prayerfully) to get rid of pornography in your life. In other words, it has nothing to do with the law. It has everything to do with grace! It has nothing to do with me telling you that pornography is wrong and sinful. It has everything to do with me telling you about the finished work of God through, in and by Jesus Christ on the cross – that your sin has been fully paid for. (Galatians 2:20) It has nothing to do with my doing or efforts (John 15:5)
It has nothing to do with me telling you that pornography is wrong and sinful. It has everything to do with me telling you about the finished work of God through, in and by Jesus Christ on the cross – that your sin has been fully paid for.
It has everything to do with the fact that it’s already been done and that all I have to do is receive the victory (Romans 8:1, Galatians 5:1, Ephesians 5:3, 1 Thessalonians. 4:3)
It has nothing to do with elbow grease (in the words of Pst. Steve Brown of Keylife Network). It has everything to do with receiving gifts freely made available by the cross of Christ Jesus our Lord.
Unbelief or ignorance?
In Paul’s final and overarching reminder to the Corinthian church (the most carnal church in Biblical history) is the simple irrefutable truth that
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s….Ye are bought with a price; be not ye the servants of men. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20, 7:23)
What? Paul you can’t be serious right? These guys with all their mess and you still compliment them? This is the time to lay down the law and let the chips fall where they may. Yet, Paul doesn’t do that. He reminds (if not teach) them something that they either had forgotten (due to unbelief) or simply hadn’t been taught (ignorance).
How can these guys have forgotten the all-important truth – THEY WERE TEMPLES OF THE HOLY GHOST!?
They were not their own!
They were now God’s possession!
They were the beloved of God!
They were now more than exceedingly blessed with more than they could ever ask, think or imagine!
Or probably it was because they didn’t know? In other words, they hadn’t been taught this awesome truth. That’s why Paul in trying to encourage them to honor their bodies (even as their bodies will be rewarded too) taught them to ‘…Awake to righteousness, and sin not; for some have not the knowledge of God: I speak this to your shame…’ (1 Corinthians 15:34).
…For some have not the knowledge of God…
Could this be what is plaguing me (and my generation). We (in the words of Paul to His young son in the faith) have a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof…(2 Timothy 3:5) In other words, we know all the right jargon and terminology yet we actually don’t know God, or the gospel which is the power of God (Romans 1:16)
And, Paul admonished his ‘son’ in the faith ‘from such turn away’ (2 Timothy 3:5)
Pastor Ock Soo Park says in his book The Secret of Forgiveness and Being Born Again,
Because we are full of sin, by nature we are trees of sin, children of sin and seeds of sin. No matter how we try to cleanse ourselves, no matter how hard we try not to sin, it does not work. A heart that does not sin must come inside of us. People who try to live a spiritual life sincerely, try not to sin, but they know that they cannot do it. People who do not live a spiritual life sincerely, those who only do it outwardly, think, “I can keep from sinning, if I try.” When people who truly try to serve the Lord, try hard not to sin, they say, “Oh, I can’t do it,” as they are falling back down. That is exactly the condition referred to in 1 John 1:9.
And the only person (or thing) that can get us out of this sinful ( in the continual present state – Romans 7) is not the law. It is GRACE – Romans 8. Actually, the law strengthens my sin – 1 Corinthians 15:56 but GRACE overcomes it.
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)
May His grace ever be sufficient in all our weaknesses.
Grace and peace be unto you and me too.